All attempts have failed
All my heads are tails
She's got teary eyes
I've got reasons why
I'm losing ground
And gaining speed
I've lost myself
Or most of me
I'm ready for the final precipice

But you haven't lost me yet
No, you haven't lost me yet
I'll sing until my heart caves in
No, you haven't lost me

These days pass me by
I dream with open eyes
Nightmares haunt my days
Visions blur my nights
I'm so confused
What's true or false
What's fact or fiction after all
I feel like I'm an apparition's pet

But you haven't lost me yet
You haven't lost me yet
I'll run until my heart breaks in
No, you haven't lost me yet
Oo, oo, yeah

If it doesn't break
If it doesn't break
Yeah, if it doesn't break your heart it isn't love
Now if it doesn't break your heart it's not enough
It's when you're breaking down with your insides coming out
It's when you find out what your heart is made up of

And you haven't lost me yet
No, you haven't lost me yet
I'll sing until my heart caves in
No, you haven't lost me yet

IM SO HAPPYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY (screams)

Today marks a very happy occasion. Went to Hougang Mall for lunch cause apparently dad thought there was Arnold's Chicken there. We got cheated. hahahaha. Bumped into Wynn and her bestfriend, which was nice. Bought all my make up stuff from Sasa, which really cost quite alot getting specific brushes and all (sorry mom). Then dad was like in an extremely generous mood or smthg.

Headed down to expo sitec (it fair) to look for stuff. dad decided to get me a mini laptop for christmas it's the like the biggest present i've ever got in my life. So i'm extremely happy!


It's an Acer Aspire One D250 <3333333333333333 RUBY RED!

and then we headed down to john little expo to shop some more. (sorry mom and dad).

I THINK I BURNT MY PARENTS' POCKETS WHOOOOPS.

yay tmr morning meeting aaron to collect his stan chart race pack on the floating platform at marina, so exciting!! afterwhich we'll be heading down to expo to collect my mini. i shall name my mini soon. suggestions anyone?

then church from 1.30-6.30 and prolly home for dinner.


I LOVEEEEEEEEE.

i want to scream.

i'm so sick of waiting by the phone for people's reply. sick of waiting for people to reciprocate some sort of friendship. yet it feels so awful not being able to tell them how frustrating it feels. why oh why.


sighhhhhh.


what is this, srsly.




priorities so they say. it says a lot.

School has finally ended for good (well until university starts) and I must say that it has been an awfully long journey.

The lessons are over, the school bell no longer rings.
No more lectures and tutorials, no more fish and seafood soup and jap delight.
Most importantly, no more drama.


Well, now's not the time to get sentimental, nor nostalgic like how you told me once.

Yay very happy PCK's back but it feels quite different. But it's really quite funny brings me back to the good old days :D

Woah I really hate studying. Once all these comes to past, I will revel in my freedom. Meet up with all my friends, learn driving, cook up a storm with Paceys, organise steamboat dinner, enjoy a good book at Starbucks, notably the twilight and HP series.

MOST IMPORTANTLY GO OUT WITH PEREIRA before he enlists on 6 Feb 2010.

23 NOVEMBER 2009.

HAPPY 18TH BRTHDAY DENISE BALHETCHET <33333

//

So that day's Ritz Apple Strudel Date Day went awry haha but all is good cause Aaron &I came up with our alternative plan. So after school I rushed home to bathe (I got it right this time!) &get ready and everything then met Aaron at Bishan to take 56 to town. We decided to exploit our student passes once again and take the $10 student rate Singapore Flyer ride :D Before which we would eat at Popeye's. Everything went well until we got off near Suntec and had to walk over to the Flyer - AND WE GOT LOST.

HAHA! According to Aaron, it's because of the F1 track fences all over that impaired our vision thus leading us to look as though we were direction idiots. So we happily followed the angmoh couple walking in front of us, assuming that they were going to the Flyer as well ( I mean like duh cause angmoh with backpacks and camera = tourists = want to check out flyer ). I mean we should have known better that they wouldn't know the way. So we followed all the way for like around 2km and found ourselves walking along the highway!



The highway we were walking along.


And the worse part we were still happily being optimistic about reaching the Flyer in less than 10 minutes. HA HA. Mistake. The highway does not even lead close to the flyer! It definitely LOOKED like we were going towards the Flyer though cause we could see it. So after realizing we were going in the wrong direction, we decided we might as well take some pictures before turning around (very grumpily and on an empty stomach ): )



The flyer in full view from the highway!

So after another 20-30 minutes of walking we finally reached the Flyer! (thank goodness). Cause we both had to satisfy our grumbling stomachs after that insane detour, we headed straight to Popeye's!









Food, glorious fooooood! The biscuit tastes very nice that day. OH OH AND THE MASH POTATOES WAS DA BOMBBBBB.





Aaron tackling the awesomest mash potatoes everrrrr (:

So after the fantastic lunch we went up to the entrance for Flyer and the whole experience was filled with mixed emotions haha. Cause I have a fear of heights I don't like the feeling of being in the air in a cubicle. So the first like <5 minutes of the ride my butt was glued to the seat in the cabin. Retarded, I know. But after that Aaron, being such a darling and being so patient with me finally got me up on my feet and soon I was lessthan prancing around taking in the view beneath. Here's just a few shots we took:






The Marina Barrage. I especially like how the skyline meets the sea!





Part of the F1 Race Track





Us in the flyer cabin!





Flyer looking pretty at night.





Our treats after the ride! (: Obviously you can tell which belonged to whom. Haha.

So yes Flyerdate was very eventful :D But I don't think it's one of those rides you would keep going on seriously, maybe that's why I think they're not really profiting and have to resort to price discrimination marketing strategies HAHAHAHA.
Many thanks to Aaron for putting up with my bitchfit part 2 that day and making the day enjoyable for the both of us. Lots of loveeeee!

//

Nothing much happened today (haha) Highlight of th day was the run with baby on his "Marymount Route" in which I think is too difficult to explain through words over here. But the distance is around 5km+ and wasn't really very very tiring so I really enjoyed it thoroughly. Will be back for more okay Aaron! :D


Us after the run, sweaty and all.

Okay this is an ultra long post I am very tired already.

Lastly, when I get my first pay after the A levels, I will start saving up for this baby for my baby:



Very tired now kthxbye love the world.

<33


AND BTW JERYL LEE YI LEI 5 MORE DAYSSSSS.

So after watching videos on youtube last night till 1am, I woke up at 8.30am this morning to revise for chemistry later. And I REALISED I MAKE SO MANY MANY MANY STUPID FRUSTRATING CARELESS MISTAKES IN MY 2ND PAPERRRRRRRRRRRR )))):

JUST KILL ME NOW.
Okay forget it, forget it. It's over now. I'll just be more careful during mcq later and attempt to salvage my grades sigh.

Jeryl's having Physics today ALL THE BESTTTTTTTT :D
Oh yes yes! Last night on the way home from Suntec my dad drove through the F1 lanes I mean okay sounds very normal but I thought it felt so cool haha. Take a look!



In the car while zooming through the F1 lane.
So this is how it looks like if you're in a F1 race car, except 1000x faster.

Yay today  is Ritz Apple Strudel Date Day. I just went online to look at some reviews of the place &food and everything but it doesn't seem that nice after all. Contemplating whether we should still go there later on.

//

Okay I'm irritated now.

Just came back from watching Whiteout @ Suntec - THE SHOW WAS .. let me rate it, 7 out of 10? But I must say the set was really good like in Antartica and all wonderful scenic shots. The part leading up to climax was very good (alamak okay forget it no spoilers here) HAHA.

I am happily watching my new addiction - the 10pm show on channel U AHHHHH chenxinyi's character is so intriguing. And although that jicunxi's an ass but he's not now and I'm very happy that they are going to get back together!!!! HAHAHA. I'm such a TV junkie my boyfriend once said he'll be surprised if I don't know what advertisements are showing on StarWorld HAHAH. But that's true.

I'm in a fix. What to do tmr )))):

Oh gosh I'm dreading saturday cause of what the leaders might do about pace. Okay nvm at least still can see my paceys and my friendsssss.

Let's go for a drink soon Aaron <333

YES YES YES MATHS IS OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!
It's not like I'm going to pass but still at least it's over for now.

Going to watch Whiteout tonight afterall. The trailer looks superb, full of action and everything.

ah got to go already.

The thought that my life is very uneventful shall never cross my mind again. It's a very dangerous thought.

So I didn't practice math as much as I wanted to, but I did try. Finished some loose chapters from stats and did the Hypothesis Testing thingymajiggy it's quite systematic, like Mathematical Induction. No wonder I knew how to do it. It involved minimal thought processes.

So anyway unpleasant things happened to my brother's new car which I shall protect his privacy and not write about here. I know he must be really upset about it and everything, I want to make him feel better but I don't know what to say. Feeling so helpless seriously. I want to laugh at how useless I am. Ever since he came home  I haven't spoken to him. And the first thing I could say was, 'Our cousin just got admitted to the hospital'. Wonderful just wonderful. ))): Doesn't help that mom and dad are having some sort of disagreements now.

Sigh. Why must so many awful things happen in a matter of hours? ):
It looks like the Whiteout movie tmr will sooner or later be cancelled. And that's sad cause I haven't been spending time with my parents. Why oh why.

Yeah I know things will get better I know it's going to be okay and  I know that tmr will be a better day. But you can't deny that the situation sucks and that's that. People need to learn how to sort out their issues, for serious. I hate being in a grumpy mood it's like I will start thinking of every unpleasant issue in my life now and dwell on it. Annoying.

Well, Denise's birthday is drawing near. Haven't talked to her for the longest time cause of current circumstances and it's making me ________ but I guess maybe I shouldn't think about it.. And maybe I should just stop thinking. Period.


and sometimes when I lay down on my bed with eyes wide awake
i think
where are you all when i needed you?

please redefine bestfriend.


api i don't want to see the world anymore it's so evilllllllllll.

I like the holidays. Whoops, I meant the days I don't have papers. HAHA. Every morning it has been wake up, stretch, take my bible notebook pencil case diary and pace notebook. Feelings of awesome. The feeling of being organized is quite enjoyable. Like I know what's happening in my life.

Yes I know I should be doing maths now and everything but just after this post. My brother just told me that he has tickets for Whiteout tmr! So my parents and I would be going to catch Whiteout @ Suntec tmr very excitinggggg. The show looks very good! Except I realized that the Whiteout they're showing in Singapore is an edited version. ): How annoying. Why can't they just not edit it and then raise the rating to NC16 or something. Oh well.

The movies that are due to come out soon looks very good! I want to watchhhhh.

1.) Coraline in 3D



A young girl named Coraline is bored with her mundane life at her new home and unengaged by her workaholic parents when she discovers a secret door in the house. The passageway leads her to the Other World, a parallel reality that seems similar to her life, only much better. Her Other Mother and Father are seemingly the perfect parents. However, when the adventure turns dangerous, she must save herself and family and find the way to get back home.

The awards-winning actress Dakota Fanning lends her voice for the character Coraline. Often mistakenly called as Caroline, Coraline is an unpleasant child who frequently complains and does not like to make friends. Other stars who lend their voices include "Desperate Housewives" actress Teri Hatcher as Mel Jones and Caroline's Other Mother and Jon Hodgman as Charlie Jones and Caroline's Other Father.

The visuals in "Coraline" are strong and exceptionally well done, bringing you the same type of visuals as in "The Nightmare Before Christmas". There are some stunning set pieces, mostly placed in Other World such as the garden and the world's strangest theatre. Also released in 3-D, a majority of online critics were impressed with the film's 3-D effect. -Yahoo! Movies Review.

2.) Inglourious Basterds




"Inglourious Basterds" begins in German-occupied France, where Shosanna Dreyfus (Melanie Laurent) witnesses the execution of her family at the hand of Nazi Colonel Hans Landa (Christoph Waltz). She narrowly escapes and flees to Paris, where she forges a new identity as the owner and operator of a cinema. Elsewhere in Europe, Lieutenant Aldo Raine (Brad Pitt) organises a group of Jewish soldiers to engage in targeted acts of vengeance. Known to their enemy as "The Basterds," Raine's squad joins German actress and undercover agent Bridget Von Hammersmark (Diane Kruger) on a mission to take down the leaders of The Third Reich. Fates converge under a cinema marquee, where Shosanna is poised to carry out a revenge plan of her own. -Yahoo! Movies.

3.) Taking Woodstock
okay aaron, okay.



An adaptation of Elliot Tiber's memoir "Taking Woodstock: A True Story of a Riot, A Concert and A Life." Tiber is an unexpected but pivotal role in making the 1969 Woodstock Music and Arts Festival into the famed happening it was. He was staked to the family business, a Catskills motel and as part-time manager, he had become the local town's issuer of event permits, granting himself one annually for a small music festival. When he heard that the planned Woodstock concert had its own permit denied by a neighboring town, he called to offer his own. Soon half a million people were on their way to Tiber's neighbour's farm in White Lake, New York, and Tiber found himself swept up in a generation-defining experience that would change his life, and American culture, forever. - Yahoo! Movies.

On a separate note,
YAY I AM MEETING JERYL NEXT WEDNESDAY I WANT TO JUMP FOR JOY.
All the best bee for Geog today
Go own it and get your A!

Study hard everybody! Haha look who's talking.

i cannot stand it.

i need to scream. i want to have my pace partners i dont want to be separated & i'm not being whiny. do you understand that these changes should not affect relationships? they cannot. it's not fair it's so not fair. after all we've put into it to make things right and working well now. we are bestflenxzsxz you cannot break us apart.

i am sad.

Oooooh yes it would be extremely exciting if we didn't have to study now and you could sneak up to my house.

Don't go crazy memorising your case studies, please? Oh oh you know what would be great now? Us sneaking out to thompson for our Ritz apple strudel date now.

PRELIMS END 17SEPT 1.50PM I CAN'T WAITTTTTTTTTTTT.

Hello World, How Are You Today?

Wow it sure feels good to be back! After getting round to change my lj to something more decent, it makes it more pleasant to post. So you might ask, how am I doing? I would love to tell you that my life is rocking out like how I would love for it to be. But the nasty truth is that I'm in the middle or rather towards the end of my Prelims, drowning in books and pressure. Only to wake up everyday and realise I'm one day closer to the A levels. Sure it is dreadful, but I really want to just get it over and done with now. No more complaining, no more regretting. Just do it get through it and live like I've never lived before. Hah. It's comforting to know that A levels end on the 23rd of Nov for me, Yizhen's birthday btw. Preparation has been decelerating as the exam approaches but I don't seem to mind that much anymore. I hope I won't realise that I actually want to give up already. Sigh.

At least life hasn't all been about studying. Been able to catch up with Paceys Sylvia and Yingqi and it's just awesome to be able to pour my heart out to them girls. Just paced with YQ via msn just now hahaha. Yes the love lives on in cyberspace. Sylvia imy thanks for your reminder that you will kiss me today HAHA, really cooled down after that. After putting so much love and effort and emotion into our pace partnership, I strongly pray that the leaders won't separate us after what we've just go through. Sigh. We can only hope for the best. Regardless, we shall "bind as one" I quote YQ. Much love goes out to you girls!

Obviously I'm not going to leave out the very important person in my life in my comeback post. Aaron Everson Pereira, I want to firstly apologise for the countless bitchfits I've had plus one more today. Seriously when life gets to me I know I can count on you to say the stupidest things to piss me off and lateron cheer me up. You and your cynicism, your humour (which is hard to understand HAHA), your love and your attempts at being patient. I appreciate it, a lot. You're the cutest seriously. You and your random facts for the day. I won't ever comprehend your brain neither would I attempt to smartypants (ahem) kidding! <3 But yes. HAHA. Funny fact for the day is the existence of a Popsicle Index. Yes, that's right you don't have to re-read it. It measures how safely a child can leave home on his own, go to the nearest neighbourhood store and buy a popsicle. Fascinating? Surely. But who was the one who devoted his time and life to record such observations! Mind-boggling, in my perspective. And you can always count on Aaron to give the funniest replies. "I would put it up with a social indicator of growth". Baby, you sound dorky but I still love you. Funny, definitely. Anyway love, please know that you've come a long way from where you started. Academically esp in french, running, musically and everything else. Sometimes I admire your energy, drive, focus and perseverance to do well in what you're passionate about. (Mainly me HAHAHAHA). And I know sometimes you don't think you see progress but I'm telling you, I believe in you and I know you're improving so don't be so disheartened! You are like the master at handling everything. Like what we always say, all these practice is making you a pro-marathon runner already. Believe in yourself okay. I love you.


Shasha I updated already! (:

God is awesome and I know He'll help me get through all these. That peace that transcends all understanding when I'm in His presence is just so overwhelming.

But may be this livejournal is. Haha. I figured since it's the holidays and it's deserted here, I should make changes to the status quo.
Happy Sept Hols? Right, what nonsense. Holidays = Chilling out and lepaking. JC Holiday = Mug for your upcoming papers = Time to salvage yourself and don't screw your Promos. It's funny how when we were in Primary and Secondary school, promotion is automatic and there wasn't a need to worry. You only had to worry about doing WELL. I hate to complain about where I'm at, cause I know it wouldn't be much better if I went to a polytechnic - probably I'll make better friends. In JC everyone just concentrates on mugging and there's no more fun in school anymore.

So, the next big thing for the JC kids are our Promotional Examinations (which are very much dreaded). I cannot stand the thought of retaining, although the possibility is kindof high. HAHA. Awkward laughter, yknow. I don't know how people do it. Find the motivation to study every day of the holiday. I can't. But neither can I feel comfortable slacking my days away, knowing this is the final lap for the first year of JC life. I should have constantly reminded myself, that coming to a JC meant hectic schedules and madass mugging for 2 years straight. And to say it sucks would be an understatement.

I just read eka's LJ, and one of the post had something like... "but isnt saying that everyone is different, just another way of saying everyone is the same?" I thought about it and yeah, every one changes. What's new, right. People should expect changes. In situations, in other people. And to expect changes is to repeat the same cycle of knowing that people are different as time passes. So why should anyone even make a big fuss to see others changing into someone different? Afterall, it's ritualistic. That said, I should stop bitching about people around me changing and becoming people I no longer know.

Although it's the holidays, we're supposed to be mugging for our Promos but somehow I find no motivation to do so (other than the possibility of me retaining). This is such a sad situation. Poly exams have ended and if I'm not wrong their holidays have started. Good for you all :D So yes, I expect to meet up with SOTU soon! :) And all the other close friends I haven't met up with in the longest time. Jeryl, Ziyu, JY. Shasha I really miss you a lot. ):

Aaron P.,
Thanks for keeping me alive.
And all the fun days
And all the hilarious moments
And the idiotic quarrels
And the making up after quarrels
And the loving
And everything else.

Be close and walk beside me.
And at times when I'm really tired after a day out,
Be there to let me cling on to
So I can walk the corridors with my eyes closed.
Nudge me when I fall asleep when walking,
And love me even when I'm grumpy.

You've been the awesomest, honey.

I'm overwhelmed by school and my results. Let's just say it's not something I really want to talk about. The lack of motivation to study before the MYEs = disastrous. Let's add to the list. Training on Friday went really.... bad? I don't know. I kept making stupid mistakes which I don't usually make. Stupid steppings. ARGH thinking about it just makes me more pissed with myself. I don't blame coach for the repeated scoldings, I knew i kept repeating the same mistake. If I don't make it to the first team, then so be it. I've come to realise that netball is not what I'm about. Because I know that me being in school is not just about academics and CCAs, rather, God has a much greater plan for us to bring the gospel to our non-Christian friends. And, that shall be my top priority now. To live for God, not for myself.

These days I've learnt a lot. From the people around me, from Aaron, from songs.

Hillsong - Heart of Worship

When the music fades
And all is stripped away
And I simply come
Longing just to bring
Something that's of worth
That will bless your heart

I'll bring You more than a song
For a song in itself
Is not what You have required
You search much deeper within
Through the ways things appear
You're looking into my heart

I'm coming back to the heart of worship
And it's all about You
All about You, Jesus
I'm sorry Lord for the thing I've made it
When it's all about You
It's all about You Jesus

King of endless worth
No one could express
How much You deserve
Though I'm weak and poor
All I have is Yours
Every single breath

I'll bring You more than just a song
For a song in itself
Is not what You have required
You search much deeper within
Through the way things appear
You're looking into my heart

I'm coming back to the heart of worship
And it's all about You
All about You, Jesus
I'm sorry Lord for the thing I've made it
When it's all about You
It's all about You Jesus

Its all about you
Jesus

-

And all my actions would be to glorify the Lord. No more putting people down, but to speak words which would build them up. To share the entire truth of the gospel, to study and do well academically do glorify God. To focus on the welfare of my netball mates rather than a leadership position which no longer means much to me. Lord, help me.

I want to be available for God. I want to be a light for Him in school and at home. I thank you God, for choosing me as your beloved child, that you might bless me and love me, and be with me throughout all the seasons.

Aaron got me tulips for our 3rd monthsary. Being a very blur Aaron, he chose red tulips, not knowing what they meant. I felt compelled to check out what tulips actually mean, and guess what I found out :
 
TULIPS

Primary Significance: If you're looking to leave butterflies in their tummies, choose tulips and watch them blush. Wildly popular throughout its history, tulips are a comfortable flower choice and one that expresses perfect love.

The is one of the world's most easily recognized and loved flowers. The meanings of tulips coupled with the immediately identifiable shape of their colorful blooms make them a comfortable flower choice. They are not too elegant, too romantic, too big, too small, or too bright; the tulip is always just right. They are like a favorite pair of jeans or your mom's fresh-baked cookies in that the meanings of tulips express genuine coziness and comfort in all of the right ways.

flowers&their meaning

ILY AEP!

You know, just 15 minutes ago I had so much on my mind and stuck in my throat. But now that I'm here I find myself speechless.  It's like I'm working my way through my thoughts - refusing to let them come out. Anyhoos, it's not like it really matters. I really miss my SOTU besties. Like a lot. Maybe I'm just being a baby because those babes are irreplaceable & I don't exactly have friends as close in CJ. But they seem to be getting on really well where they're at so I'm happy for them. I hope Monday will work out.

/

First week back to school and I'm having difficulties breathing. PW is crazy. Then there's OCIP coming up (ARGH), more responsibilities from netball &  outreach at church. But I thank God for being with me throughout the entire week and He has been answering a lot of my prayers and stuff. Very awesome. So yes I thank God for getting me through school.

/

JERYL LEE YI LEI.
Seriously. Meet up. Soonish.
Bestfriend/Sister, 11 years and running. I need to go out with you to stop worrying about school.
I MISS YOU MANY. School's not the same without you, it's so empty so empty. Jie, pleaseeeeee TEXT ME & tell me when is good to meet I WILL MAKE TIME FOR YOU.

/

AEP.
You know that you're what makes school bearable. Those measly hours we cram in our tight schedules, just to make our lives a little bit better. Thanks for everything, as usual. The most trivial thing touches my heart. You're such a darling when it comes to cheering me up and telling me every thing's going to be just fine. It's also great to know that God's working between us and every thing's going so smooth. The lame jokes, the funny expressions, the verymature mindset, the kanchiongspider mood. Our inside jokes and everything. Aiyo just thinking about those occasions crack me up. You know I love you many many. YOU DA MAN.


OKAY I DONT WANT TO POST ALREADY
MESSY PUCU.

I really have to start serious mugging for the mid years and stop procrastinating lah crapppppppp. I shouldn't even be here now cause I'm supposed to be studying. Aiyah Aaron, faster come back please.

When you have to look away
When you don't have much to say
That's when I love you
I love you
Just that way

To hear you stumble when you speak
Or see you walk with two left feet
That's when I love you
I love you endlessly

And when you're mad cause you lost a game
Forget im waiting in the rain
Baby I love you
I love you anyway

Cause here's my promise made tonight
You can count on me for life
Cause that's when I love you
When nothing you do could change my mind
The more I learn the more I love
The more my heart can't get enough
That's when I love you
When I love you no matter what

So when you turn to hide your eyes
Cause the movie, it made you cry
That's when I love you
I love you a little more each time

And when you can't quite match your clothes
Or when you laugh at your own jokes
That's when I love you
I love you more than you know

And when you forget that we had a date
Or that look that you give when you show up late
Baby I love you
I love you anyway

Cause here's my promise made tonight
You can count on me for life
Cause that's when I love you
When nothing you do could change my mind
The more I learn the more I love
The more my heart can't get enough
That's when I love you
When I love you no matter what

That's when I love you
When nothing baby
Nothing you do could change my mind
The more I learn the more i love
The more my heart can't get enough
That's when I love you
When I love you
No matter what

 Here's a short post before the Pereira leaves for YISS camp. 

Here's to a very Delightful Second Monthsary with you, darling!
Whatever I've been meaning to tell you is written in that little orange booklet I've given to you this morning, and in it lies my deepest truest feelings. Thanks for being there for me through the good times and bad, the rough and the smooth, cheering me up with all your lame jokes. Haha. You're more than I could ever ask for and I thank Fod for a blessing like you, cause with you I've grown to be a better person, a better Christian, and a better girlfriend. 

Today I had a realisation. Despite us coming together as one now, we should never lose sight that we're 2 individuals coming together. And day by day, I get to know you a little more, know about your past a little more. Each day is a discovery, you know? And I know we have our histories, we each have our issues which we don't like to mention. I understand there's always skeletons in the cupboard (eee so lame, is that even correct?) haha but anyways, I just want to let you know that it's only when we talk about it openly with one another can we grow closer and stronger together. You know that, right? :D About that whole picture thing that just happened, ay you know you can be frank with me what right. The fact that you kept saying it's nothing only gets me even more paranoid lah. That's how girls function - weird I know. Yes yes so there, there shouldn't be anything you have to hide from me, sama sama. 

You have your videos and the orange booklet to entertain you at your 4-day camp. So have fun and rock out for Daddy up there! 

Much loves! 

/

I NEED TO STUDY FOR THE FRGING MIDYEARS BOOHOO. 

/

YAY ME IS VERY HAPPY 
Hello Netball, Here I Come. 
...the efforts haven't gone to waste.